.: Decision .:

Since last two weeks our team has committed two external error..
I'm the one who need to clarify the factor of this error and the ways to avoid it in future (even though its not my error)..
Not blame anyone but it's part of my new role maybe?.
Sometimes I wonder if I have made a right decision to accept this new role..
Compare to last time, I'm much more happier person instead of now..
People always said that I should be grateful with my new role : i'm "someone" there, higher paid, bonus, etc.. but it's not the factor for the happiness..
Last time, I love to hang out in the office till 5am without do any works as I have lots of close friends to be with.. but now, I can't wait even 1 minute to go back home..
Maybe because of a new role or maybe most of our close friend already resigned..
Dont know and feel lost.

These two errors also makes me realised something..
People changes.. and learnt from their old mistakes..
Not all the time person who always makes an error, will make an error..
Sometimes we need to give them a chance to prove that they are correct..
And not all the times the person who shows that they are correct is in correct status.. sometimes, they also can commit the error..
Enough said, we are all humans.. and humans are not perfect.

.: Lost :.

Lost. Tired. Negative vibre.
Not-so-good-weeks.
Today I'm working for more that 12 hours which is so not healthy.
Got some big issue here and there, plus training which took me for 2 hours 30 min
away from my 'lovely' desk.
Regret as I need to leave my peer doing all the important task alone
when I know she's not too familiar with that stress..
If I have a choice, I would rather skip that training and help with the tasks.
And might be we will not faces that big issue and no need to answer back
what's going on while I'm also didn't know the whole story yet.
I'm not blaming her at all but myself.
I should be there during that time as it's my responsibility..
Didn't say the training is not important but if I can cut my body into two,
I'll do that.


='(

.: Random:.

Told my mom that I have a training in the office during the weekend..
My mom just nod and asked me to buy a house in the office..
Hahahahaha.. I should follow her advise then...

=P

.: Life:.

Last weekend, our younger cousin (mom's side) getting engaged at my auntie's place..
This is the best time for all cousins catching up all the gossips and updates about each other..

So long we didn't met each other and the last time we have chatting session is Sept last year (if I'm not mistaken)- bbq session during eid festival..

We talked about life, career, responsible, nonsense thingy, etc..
While talking about marriage, one of my close cousin asked me when will be my Big Day (married - while he just broke up with his gf because she asked him to get married. Daaaa~~~).

I told him I'll think about that once I have my own house.. and surprisingly, he also agreed with me..
Knowing him since the day he borned (he's 1 year younger than me), he never take seriously when we talked about our future..

Then I just realised we are adult already and matured enough, compared to those years, when we only have a thought on how to spend our parents money on 'lepaking' and clubbing (he's the mastermind in our family for those bad activities.. hehehe). Time flies so fast and make us change to what we are today..

What can I recall is, last time when we are together, we always talked about where should we spend our weekend, which place much more happening, who should go and ask our parents permission for that 'bad' activities, who should drive us there..
But that day, we just only talked about our works (most of my cousins working in a banking field and I have 2 cousins under the same roof), about our future planning, responsibility which till today I'm still wonder how we can 100% change compared to those "teenagers days"..

But, its good for all of us as we still close even though we rarely see each other (except for me and my 2 cousins)..

=)