sangat susah hidup sebagai perempuan yang bekerjaya dan mempunyai waktu kerja yang sangat abnormal dari orang biasa.
saya ada seorang kawan rapat yang bernama lin (bukan nama sebenar).
beliau baru je bertunang tahun lepas.
dia plan nak nikah tahun ni.
dan mungkin plan die takkan menjadi kenyataan bahkan mungkin mereka akan putus tunang.
semua ni disebabkan orang ketiga yang mana orang ketiga itu adalah bakal mak mentua dia.
bakal mak mentua beliau sering salah anggap kerjaya lin disebabkan kami bekerja bukan ikut waktu tempatan.
dan disebabkan kami pulang di awal2 pagi, untuk mengelakkan dari balik pada masa yang sama setiap hari dan diekori oleh orang yang berniat jahat, kami sering keluar minum-minum selepas waktu kerja.
benda ni sampai ke telinga bakal mak mentua dia.
lagi lah hangin mak mentua dia tu.
penat tunang dia menerangkan kepada mak dia tapi bley pula mak dia tuduh tunang dia anak kurang ajar.
tadi, lin nangis2 cerita kat kami bertiga (note : jannah, tasha & saya)
dan menda ni wat saya terfikir.
salah ke kami bekerja bukan macam orang lain?
salah ke kami tak balik rumah terus supaya keselamatan diri kami terjamin?
salah ke kami bekerja bukan untuk membuang masa tetapi mencari rezeki yang halal?
(again, note : kami disini bermaksud kaum perempuan yang blum berkahwin)

dan menda ni sampai sekarang masih bermain-main di fikiran saya.
salah kami ke semua menda buruk terjadi?


p/s: just now, before we came back, 200 trade just came in and need to new setup and process by tomorrow. wonder how the new processor want to finish it. azwan still in his mc. so, if u guys heard news that one girl had commit suicide from level 8 bangunan bursa malaysia, it was me ok.
*jokes with the tears coming out* :')

-NITE!-

story about office.

*azwan came only for first 15 minutes. he got red eyes and can't see the screen well. but, before he's take for the mc, he finished all trade in Q. love him!

*settlement team trace 2 mistakes from the verifier Q. others fault but the one who got the blame is ME. demmit. processor should know the trade well before they submit to verify. that's y i hate the new processor. not because they are slow but they r lazy to ask around. just process what they want without even take their time to think. i'm also the newbie there. i'm also had been in processor place. but, we (me & azwan) learnt in a hard way before we can be like this. we had been scolded in a rough way while we are in the learning time. Now, we don't want the new processor learning in that way and we showed them in polite way. but they didn't take this advantage to learnt more. just do as their wish. shit. even, just now kak isma sounded me, "why, rina too nice to them? just teach them as how mich teach u." blurghhhhhhh

*i've got 2 external error because of the above things. mayb my confirmation will be extend. thanks to the new processor. SHIT

*thinks to move to the other market after i'm 1 year in this market. can't wait anymore. or hope that other banks that i had applied give me an offer to join them. sgt2 berharap. #berdoa#

*hope azwan will not take mc too long. if not, i'm in hell. seriously.

-NITE!-

it's been a month after that bad things happened.
rite now, my dad will sent & fetch me back from work.
pity on him but i had no encourage to drive the car to the office.
even-though he already buy me 1 new car.
had 1 time in this month i drive the car but at the end, i'll cry & asked my dad to wait for me outside the house when i'm going back home.
childish but i'm not stronger like yesterday.
maybe one day i'll become like yesterday but not for now.
need more time to forget that things


:(