So exhausted today. Finish my work 30 minutes past 1am. Lots of issue since our internal auditor team doing some investigation to our sub team. Plus, wfh make it more hard.
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Received call from my manager earlier. She told me that the manager position that I apply last time, she closed without any further action. The reason, management been advised that we have extra people and need to reduce. When I heard the news, I dont feel anything. Nor sad neither happy. I dont expect anything on that application since I just simply apply. She keeps on saying sorry. I just want to tell her the truth but she might thinking I just want to please her. So, I told her, I'm okay with it.
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Actually, during this holy month, I try to repair myself and become a good human.. Not to please others but more like I need to please Allah. I set my goal to khatam quran towards end of this holy month and I keep on pushing myself to read it at least 2 pages for a day. But today, I dont feel to read it (bad attitude). Dont know what is in my mind today but I really feel too exhausted.
Not body but emotionally. I feel like I need some air fresh with a sound of wave in a windy weather.
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Or maybe actually, the thing that I needed most now is relax and sleep. I dont have enough sleep for almost a month since my eyes dont want to have it and my mind keep on working which I dont know what work it is.
😭😭😭😭😭
💔💔💔💔💔
Tuesday, May 12, 2020
Monday, April 27, 2020
. :Ramblings:.
Read all the oldest post in this blog and I just surprise I manage to go through all this shit alive.
Need to saved as draft most the oldest post since going to open this blog for public.
Since I've got some leisure times now, let me share some nonsense things happens in my life for last year.
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1st, still fat, single and in denial of married life.
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2nd, most of our MNL gang resigned and move to other team. Only left two of us and both of us still in the same sub team. AND STILL SHARING THE SAME STATUS, SINGLE. SAD
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3rd,
I went through operation remove appendix.
At first, doctor detected I have batu karang in my hempedu and want to remove that.
After going full body scan, they saw my appendix also got some prob and decide to remove both. 1st time been hospitalised and haunting me till now.
The operation started at 11pm or 12am, cant remember the exact time. Need to push even though midnight as the appendix cant wait longer.
I've been located in ICU alone after operation, no one there except doc and nurses that monitor my heart beat.
Sad story but, its happens.
After terjaga, doc told me that they only manage to remove my appendix since the rock in my hempedu is solid rock and if they still proceed to remove it, they risk my life. I'm not in a good condition to go for major operation to remove that batu degil.
Need to go for 2nd operation but I insists not to do it. Dont want to be in ICU alone again. Scary and sakit. I hate the feeling of alone in ICU. Still can feel it till now.
Let Allah decide how my life will be.
My final decision.
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Try to live a better life nowadays. My circle of friends become smaller as not really active in soc media. Post operation- it makes me realise how I should live my life.
Just go with the flow and do not bother what others think and talk about you.
You are the one who will ride that rollercoaster alone at the end.
Do what makes you happy and tell everyone that you missed and loved, about your feeling. You never know if you still have a chance to do so in next 1 second.
If what you aim for, not yet in your hand, nevermind. Maybe this is the best for you.
Just go with it and enjoy.
I'm lucky enough to have family and friends that still support and cheer me when I'm down.
Especially during the post operation time.
I have mental breakdown and emotionally break down that time.
I hate being in hospital.
Everytime my mom come to visit me, I asked her if I will die today. Still can remember that moment and feeling.
She needs to tell me to be strong and just think of Allah. Every seconds.
And every night is a nightmare as no one with me and I still can imagine how I am in ICU.
Even, my condition is not so good yet (as doc asked me to walk around, but I dont), my doc allowed me to discharged and have a rest at home with condition I patuh with every date of appointment and stay at home only.
But, yeah, I'm a stubborn kid.
Before the last appointment, I'm already reported to work.
My mom told me, this is a reason for my breakdown.
I cant stay at home or room for a long period of times doing nothing.
Its not good actually.
I slowly change my habit and spend more times at home.
But still, that nightmare still in my mind and it reminds me again tonight.
😷😷😷😷😷😷
Need to saved as draft most the oldest post since going to open this blog for public.
Since I've got some leisure times now, let me share some nonsense things happens in my life for last year.
.
1st, still fat, single and in denial of married life.
.
2nd, most of our MNL gang resigned and move to other team. Only left two of us and both of us still in the same sub team. AND STILL SHARING THE SAME STATUS, SINGLE. SAD
.
3rd,
I went through operation remove appendix.
At first, doctor detected I have batu karang in my hempedu and want to remove that.
After going full body scan, they saw my appendix also got some prob and decide to remove both. 1st time been hospitalised and haunting me till now.
The operation started at 11pm or 12am, cant remember the exact time. Need to push even though midnight as the appendix cant wait longer.
I've been located in ICU alone after operation, no one there except doc and nurses that monitor my heart beat.
Sad story but, its happens.
After terjaga, doc told me that they only manage to remove my appendix since the rock in my hempedu is solid rock and if they still proceed to remove it, they risk my life. I'm not in a good condition to go for major operation to remove that batu degil.
Need to go for 2nd operation but I insists not to do it. Dont want to be in ICU alone again. Scary and sakit. I hate the feeling of alone in ICU. Still can feel it till now.
Let Allah decide how my life will be.
My final decision.
.
Try to live a better life nowadays. My circle of friends become smaller as not really active in soc media. Post operation- it makes me realise how I should live my life.
Just go with the flow and do not bother what others think and talk about you.
You are the one who will ride that rollercoaster alone at the end.
Do what makes you happy and tell everyone that you missed and loved, about your feeling. You never know if you still have a chance to do so in next 1 second.
If what you aim for, not yet in your hand, nevermind. Maybe this is the best for you.
Just go with it and enjoy.
I'm lucky enough to have family and friends that still support and cheer me when I'm down.
Especially during the post operation time.
I have mental breakdown and emotionally break down that time.
I hate being in hospital.
Everytime my mom come to visit me, I asked her if I will die today. Still can remember that moment and feeling.
She needs to tell me to be strong and just think of Allah. Every seconds.
And every night is a nightmare as no one with me and I still can imagine how I am in ICU.
Even, my condition is not so good yet (as doc asked me to walk around, but I dont), my doc allowed me to discharged and have a rest at home with condition I patuh with every date of appointment and stay at home only.
But, yeah, I'm a stubborn kid.
Before the last appointment, I'm already reported to work.
My mom told me, this is a reason for my breakdown.
I cant stay at home or room for a long period of times doing nothing.
Its not good actually.
I slowly change my habit and spend more times at home.
But still, that nightmare still in my mind and it reminds me again tonight.
😷😷😷😷😷😷
Sunday, March 31, 2019
Few updates for first quarter 2019;
- still single
- still gemuk
- still stress with the works
- my days begin at the office and end at the office for 5 days in a week. No social life at all. LOSER.
- still did not have any plans to go anywhere this year. My life become dull and boring these days.
- i need beach life !.*or should i say bitch life?*
- missing to have road trips with my girls. But everyone seems to have their own priority nowadays..
- my circle of close friends become smaller. Blame me myself as I always MIA when they arrange lepak-lepak session.bak kata silah,
dah tua mmg camtu. Duhhh!
- i need to find a boyfriend since my mom dah start berleter.. huhu
That's all I think.
Will see if there is any update in June 2019!
hint update blog 3 bulan skali
if still alive
- still single
- still gemuk
- still stress with the works
- my days begin at the office and end at the office for 5 days in a week. No social life at all. LOSER.
- still did not have any plans to go anywhere this year. My life become dull and boring these days.
- i need beach life !.
- missing to have road trips with my girls. But everyone seems to have their own priority nowadays..
- my circle of close friends become smaller. Blame me myself as I always MIA when they arrange lepak-lepak session.
dah tua mmg camtu. Duhhh!
- i need to find a boyfriend since my mom dah start berleter.. huhu
That's all I think.
Will see if there is any update in June 2019!
Thursday, October 4, 2018
Random Rant
Camne kita tau kita dah sedia untuk berkahwin?
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How we know he/she is the right one?
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How can we know we are ready for that 'gambling' for the rest of our life?
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I hate it when people get married just because they dont want people talk bad about them.
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I love to see people get married because they love each other but hate it when the married only last for 3 months? What love are you talk about? When they decided to separate, did they remember the love that they have towards each other before this? Some people might saying, its their fate.. only last long for a short period of times.. but, before they decided to get married, did they think about all this possibility? Can we call this as selfish? Just decided to get married because that time they love each other and separate because the love gone?
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I hate it when people used other people as excuses to separate or to stay in unhealthy relationship. Its you to decide what you wants in your life. Not blame others. When you get married or attached to someone else life, did that other person force you? Dont think so.
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Everyone asked me when I will get attached. I want to shout to them, I'm not ready yet. I'm not sure if I will one day but as of now, No.
I'm not sure if I can live with one person for 20 years at least when I'm still 'gado2' with my siblings sometimes because of stupid thingy.
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My surrounding is not a healthy surrounding, I must say. So, I'm not sure if I can survive with this gambling of life..
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How we know he/she is the right one?
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How can we know we are ready for that 'gambling' for the rest of our life?
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I hate it when people get married just because they dont want people talk bad about them.
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I love to see people get married because they love each other but hate it when the married only last for 3 months? What love are you talk about? When they decided to separate, did they remember the love that they have towards each other before this? Some people might saying, its their fate.. only last long for a short period of times.. but, before they decided to get married, did they think about all this possibility? Can we call this as selfish? Just decided to get married because that time they love each other and separate because the love gone?
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I hate it when people used other people as excuses to separate or to stay in unhealthy relationship. Its you to decide what you wants in your life. Not blame others. When you get married or attached to someone else life, did that other person force you? Dont think so.
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Everyone asked me when I will get attached. I want to shout to them, I'm not ready yet. I'm not sure if I will one day but as of now, No.
I'm not sure if I can live with one person for 20 years at least when I'm still 'gado2' with my siblings sometimes because of stupid thingy.
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My surrounding is not a healthy surrounding, I must say. So, I'm not sure if I can survive with this gambling of life..
Monday, December 26, 2016
#random2016 1
Hope someone will tell me;
- it is normal couples fight
- it is normal both of you become bored towards each other
- it is nomal couples cheat and trust broken.
- it is normal relatonship ends.
#no trust in relatinship at all
i need the confident and trust back before start the new relationship
love is hard. So hard.
- it is normal couples fight
- it is normal both of you become bored towards each other
- it is nomal couples cheat and trust broken.
- it is normal relatonship ends.
Monday, August 31, 2015
Saturday, August 22, 2015
29 YO now.. and still young.
Celebrate my birthday last Tuesday..
No special party since I'm working on that day.
But, I'm lucky enough to be loved by soooo many people.
Mom and dad wish me the morning of the day.
As usual. Felt like I'm grown up (become older) too fast. =P
Following by the lovely messages from my closest friends. They still makes times for my special day even though they need to report to work.
Going to the office, with hope that no one talked about my day. Pretend being busy at my workstation till Marina told me Amy wants to meet us and have a catch up session. Take my 1 hour break time and met them at GJ cafe. Suddenly, Amy makes a surprise by bring out the cakes (not 1!) and order my favorite latte. Chit chat and laugh till Marina's hubby asked her when she will come home.
While both of them headed to parking area, I'm forced myself to continue my works. Then Ayu came to my workstation and bring me my favorite latte from ☆bucks. LOL. They know how to make me happy!
While continue pretending I'm busy, one of my team mates, S, shout out and asked everyone to sing a happy birthday song. I just like, whatttt.
Then Ade came to my workstation with the cake. Another cake for me! Yes. All my closest friends love to give me foods and they are so sweet. No wonder they only gave me the sweetest food! LOL.
After all the 'awkward situation', I think to myself, this is the last one *hope*.
Andddd suddenly I received a call from my family members in MNL. They are shouted there and wishing me! Feel so touched and almost want to cry! Missing their voice and their laugh for almost 7 months!
Chit chat for a while and that called really make me smile for the whole day!
While almost the end of the day, got another called from MNL and its from the most handsome boss, A!
He wish me and give me a power card to do anything on that day as a present. Asked me to tell him if anyone disturbing me and he will do the necessary.
Soooooo sweet! This is the reason why I still cannot move on from all MNL family and keep in being bias. They are too nice for me and I love them so much! Even though we spend our time together only for 2.5 -3 months but they are there when I need them - when I almost cried with the nonsense thingy.
Hope can meet all of them again one day. Definitely will tell them how much I miss them and love them..
='(
No special party since I'm working on that day.
But, I'm lucky enough to be loved by soooo many people.
Mom and dad wish me the morning of the day.
As usual. Felt like I'm grown up (become older) too fast. =P
Following by the lovely messages from my closest friends. They still makes times for my special day even though they need to report to work.
Going to the office, with hope that no one talked about my day. Pretend being busy at my workstation till Marina told me Amy wants to meet us and have a catch up session. Take my 1 hour break time and met them at GJ cafe. Suddenly, Amy makes a surprise by bring out the cakes (not 1!) and order my favorite latte. Chit chat and laugh till Marina's hubby asked her when she will come home.
While both of them headed to parking area, I'm forced myself to continue my works. Then Ayu came to my workstation and bring me my favorite latte from ☆bucks. LOL. They know how to make me happy!
While continue pretending I'm busy, one of my team mates, S, shout out and asked everyone to sing a happy birthday song. I just like, whatttt.
Then Ade came to my workstation with the cake. Another cake for me! Yes. All my closest friends love to give me foods and they are so sweet. No wonder they only gave me the sweetest food! LOL.
After all the 'awkward situation', I think to myself, this is the last one *hope*.
Andddd suddenly I received a call from my family members in MNL. They are shouted there and wishing me! Feel so touched and almost want to cry! Missing their voice and their laugh for almost 7 months!
Chit chat for a while and that called really make me smile for the whole day!
While almost the end of the day, got another called from MNL and its from the most handsome boss, A!
He wish me and give me a power card to do anything on that day as a present. Asked me to tell him if anyone disturbing me and he will do the necessary.
Soooooo sweet! This is the reason why I still cannot move on from all MNL family and keep in being bias. They are too nice for me and I love them so much! Even though we spend our time together only for 2.5 -3 months but they are there when I need them - when I almost cried with the nonsense thingy.
Hope can meet all of them again one day. Definitely will tell them how much I miss them and love them..
='(
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
.: Changed :.
I think I have changed recently.
I keep myself away from lots of people inculding my closer friends.
Only connected to those closest one which I feel that I can told them anything and anytime.
This usually happens when I have lots of issues to handle and dont want to burden other people with my problems as I know they also have their own thingy to handle with.
I did shares all my problems with Mr AP as this problems related to our works and he knows me too well and also I know I can trust him 100% to keep from others.
But, till last week, I think I should stop to share with him as this is my problems and its unfair for him to listen to my problems all the time when he also might has his own issues to handle with.
I try my best to keep all that issues by myself and resolved all that issues asap but sometimes I failed to do so. At the end, what I can do is crying. To let it out from my head.
Dont know till when I can survive like this.
='(
I keep myself away from lots of people inculding my closer friends.
Only connected to those closest one which I feel that I can told them anything and anytime.
This usually happens when I have lots of issues to handle and dont want to burden other people with my problems as I know they also have their own thingy to handle with.
I did shares all my problems with Mr AP as this problems related to our works and he knows me too well and also I know I can trust him 100% to keep from others.
But, till last week, I think I should stop to share with him as this is my problems and its unfair for him to listen to my problems all the time when he also might has his own issues to handle with.
I try my best to keep all that issues by myself and resolved all that issues asap but sometimes I failed to do so. At the end, what I can do is crying. To let it out from my head.
Dont know till when I can survive like this.
='(
Sunday, May 17, 2015
Saturday, May 16, 2015
.: Past :.
My closest friend in office (also my trainer now for far east market), M, asked me why I didnt bother at all about marriage while all our friends there worried about their life partner.
And it just knock my mind as well as all this while, whenever people asked me about marriage, I just laugh and said 'not yet maybe'.
Being in a relationship for 8 years with the same person (of course on and off), I think its hard to maintain a good momentum. We are not like a normal couple (fight, have some drama or shout at each other). We never fight (so far, what I can recall) as we believed we are matured enough (seriously?) to handle all these nonsense thingy.
But, of course, jealous is the main reason why both of us always break up during these 8 years period of time.
We have a planned to move to the next step (marriage) while his late mother still with us. But, maybe we are not meant for each other. After his mother passed away, followed by his father, we break up for a while (but of course I'm by his side, as a close friend to support and cheer him up).
Then, we continue being together back and continue what we planned before. He brought me to meet all his brothers and I bring him to meet my sister as well.
Dont know what happened, we lost our way. As usual, maybe jealous is the factor (but for me its the indicator that we are really not meant for each other).
We offically break up 1 month before I'm going to MNL. And both of us agreed that no more after this. Not as a friend as well since we might being together again and again.
While I'm in MNL, I tried my best to forget him and we tried our best to ignore each other (of course its hard at first since we still connected by fb).
He gave me a msg but no reply from me of course and the same thing happens from my side.
But after 2 months (I'm back from MNL), we totally strangers to each other. I think I have enough as of now and I dont think marriage is one of my focused as of now.
Maybe in future, who knows but for now, not yet.
=P
And it just knock my mind as well as all this while, whenever people asked me about marriage, I just laugh and said 'not yet maybe'.
Being in a relationship for 8 years with the same person (of course on and off), I think its hard to maintain a good momentum. We are not like a normal couple (fight, have some drama or shout at each other). We never fight (so far, what I can recall) as we believed we are matured enough (seriously?) to handle all these nonsense thingy.
But, of course, jealous is the main reason why both of us always break up during these 8 years period of time.
We have a planned to move to the next step (marriage) while his late mother still with us. But, maybe we are not meant for each other. After his mother passed away, followed by his father, we break up for a while (but of course I'm by his side, as a close friend to support and cheer him up).
Then, we continue being together back and continue what we planned before. He brought me to meet all his brothers and I bring him to meet my sister as well.
Dont know what happened, we lost our way. As usual, maybe jealous is the factor (but for me its the indicator that we are really not meant for each other).
We offically break up 1 month before I'm going to MNL. And both of us agreed that no more after this. Not as a friend as well since we might being together again and again.
While I'm in MNL, I tried my best to forget him and we tried our best to ignore each other (of course its hard at first since we still connected by fb).
He gave me a msg but no reply from me of course and the same thing happens from my side.
But after 2 months (I'm back from MNL), we totally strangers to each other. I think I have enough as of now and I dont think marriage is one of my focused as of now.
Maybe in future, who knows but for now, not yet.
=P
.: Respect. Amaze:.
Happy day for me today (I guess)..
No much issue and seems like all the 'roller-coaster-days' has gone (hopefully).
While doing the works just now, Mr AT 'st' me asking about something.
And, as usual, he never forget to give me a new word (comes with the meaning of each alphabet.. like I.T.A.L.Y, J.A.P.AN).
I'm so amazed with him actually.
He's one of my trainee when I'm in MNL.
Sometimes I called him "boss" as he's in higher level from me..
Compare to other person which in the same level with him, he never ever escape my training.
To add on, he never take down the notes but he can remember all those things that I has delivered to all of them. He will understand all those things and absorb in his mind.
I really admirer his positive thinking and he once told me that if someone did the error, he'll sang the song to that person. (Sounds cool to me! Thehehe).
That's the reason why I really dont mind to answer lots of question from him (knowing me, I'm lazy to answer the question from higher level as I believed they should know better) as I know I'll learnt something as well.
Sometimes, I make a joke with him asking him to take me as his staff. I know I'll learn lots of things and I can be positive person as well. I really need that now..
=P
No much issue and seems like all the 'roller-coaster-days' has gone (hopefully).
While doing the works just now, Mr AT 'st' me asking about something.
And, as usual, he never forget to give me a new word (comes with the meaning of each alphabet.. like I.T.A.L.Y, J.A.P.AN).
I'm so amazed with him actually.
He's one of my trainee when I'm in MNL.
Sometimes I called him "boss" as he's in higher level from me..
Compare to other person which in the same level with him, he never ever escape my training.
To add on, he never take down the notes but he can remember all those things that I has delivered to all of them. He will understand all those things and absorb in his mind.
I really admirer his positive thinking and he once told me that if someone did the error, he'll sang the song to that person. (Sounds cool to me! Thehehe).
That's the reason why I really dont mind to answer lots of question from him (knowing me, I'm lazy to answer the question from higher level as I believed they should know better) as I know I'll learnt something as well.
Sometimes, I make a joke with him asking him to take me as his staff. I know I'll learn lots of things and I can be positive person as well. I really need that now..
=P
Wednesday, May 13, 2015
.: A very long day :.
- meeting : supposed not me but ... *silent*
- cont with another meeting : lots of issues here and there. *still okay*
-they play around and they almost give me heart attack : almost missed fund *meh*
- big issue : blame each other which the party in fault is third party. niceee. *exhausted*
And the best part, cannot go back even already passed almost 2 hour from working hours.
Reached home : whatsapp amy asked her if she still want me to pass resume to ben.
=)
- cont with another meeting : lots of issues here and there. *still okay*
-they play around and they almost give me heart attack : almost missed fund *meh*
- big issue : blame each other which the party in fault is third party. niceee. *exhausted*
And the best part, cannot go back even already passed almost 2 hour from working hours.
Reached home : whatsapp amy asked her if she still want me to pass resume to ben.
=)
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
.: random :.
Dad : Dikcik (my name amongs family members), did u remember auntie zahnita?
Me : a lil bit. Why?
Dad : her son working under the same company as you but different zone. HK zone. In cyber not kl.
Me : ermmmmm. *munching my niece's grapes while the eyes focused on tv*
Dad : zahin (or zahir or zahim, can't remember; or maybe not focused) will attend the training in kl tomorrow. Dikcik wants to meet him and introduce yourself to him?
Me : *silent for a while* dont think so. Have lots of meetings (excuses). Dah ngantuk (sleepy already). Nite.
*dont know how many times he asked me to meet whoever-this-guy. But, I'm not interested at all as for now. Sorry dad! *
**need another excuses; in future**
=P
Me : a lil bit. Why?
Dad : her son working under the same company as you but different zone. HK zone. In cyber not kl.
Me : ermmmmm. *munching my niece's grapes while the eyes focused on tv*
Dad : zahin (or zahir or zahim, can't remember; or maybe not focused) will attend the training in kl tomorrow. Dikcik wants to meet him and introduce yourself to him?
Me : *silent for a while* dont think so. Have lots of meetings (excuses). Dah ngantuk (sleepy already). Nite.
*dont know how many times he asked me to meet whoever-this-guy. But, I'm not interested at all as for now. Sorry dad! *
**need another excuses; in future**
=P
.: Ignore :.
Have to save the previous entry in draft.
After meditate in warm bath tub, I should take that challeged as a new knowledge for me - for my own improvement.
=)
- GOOD NIGHT! -
After meditate in warm bath tub, I should take that challeged as a new knowledge for me - for my own improvement.
=)
- GOOD NIGHT! -
Monday, May 11, 2015
Sunday, May 10, 2015
.: Craving. Crazy :.
Craving since thursday's night. Till my trainee / my partner in crime / my workstation's neighbour, zarif, asked me if I'm pregnant in Manila as craving lots of food. And the best part, all my food will be his food as well since I'm too full to finish all or I've a meeting to attend to.
=P
Saturday, May 9, 2015
.: Ramblings part II:.
Have some serious chat with him last night.
Talking about works, office related and the future.
He told me he have an interview session this monday.
-the one he applied last march.
Too happy for him but too sad as well.
Too happy as finally he can shows to other nonsense people there that he's capable man and he has the knowledge that other team realise but not his own team leader.
Too sad as I'm going to lost him as my reference, my dictionary and my partner in crime.
But, of course, he needs that movement after all nonsense thingy happens this week. I should support him and pray for his success.
I told him I prefer if he can move up in our team instead of other team as for us here, he's really reliable and knowledgeable verifier.
He agreed with me as for him, he's already comfortable with his tasks now but, maybe management have a different ideas with us.
Hate it but we need to accept the decision as that's not our own company, I guess.
Losing him, meaning, I might be lost my little brother there. Because the stress might be higher for him. And losing two beloved persons are not happy at all. No more excited reason why I should come to office everyday. The only reason left is I need the salary. That's it.
I cannot mumbling in my fb about all this nonsense thingy as there are team leader in my friend list and I'm not trusted them at all. Not yet I guess..
I should start to submit my resume once he confirms with me he'll move and my little brother is no longer there. I'll not leave till both of them is no longer there. That's my promise to myself. As both of them are really special to me. Dont know why.
=)
Talking about works, office related and the future.
He told me he have an interview session this monday.
-the one he applied last march.
Too happy for him but too sad as well.
Too happy as finally he can shows to other nonsense people there that he's capable man and he has the knowledge that other team realise but not his own team leader.
Too sad as I'm going to lost him as my reference, my dictionary and my partner in crime.
But, of course, he needs that movement after all nonsense thingy happens this week. I should support him and pray for his success.
I told him I prefer if he can move up in our team instead of other team as for us here, he's really reliable and knowledgeable verifier.
He agreed with me as for him, he's already comfortable with his tasks now but, maybe management have a different ideas with us.
Hate it but we need to accept the decision as that's not our own company, I guess.
Losing him, meaning, I might be lost my little brother there. Because the stress might be higher for him. And losing two beloved persons are not happy at all. No more excited reason why I should come to office everyday. The only reason left is I need the salary. That's it.
I cannot mumbling in my fb about all this nonsense thingy as there are team leader in my friend list and I'm not trusted them at all. Not yet I guess..
I should start to submit my resume once he confirms with me he'll move and my little brother is no longer there. I'll not leave till both of them is no longer there. That's my promise to myself. As both of them are really special to me. Dont know why.
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