So exhausted today. Finish my work 30 minutes past 1am. Lots of issue since our internal auditor team doing some investigation to our sub team. Plus, wfh make it more hard.
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Received call from my manager earlier. She told me that the manager position that I apply last time, she closed without any further action. The reason, management been advised that we have extra people and need to reduce. When I heard the news, I dont feel anything. Nor sad neither happy. I dont expect anything on that application since I just simply apply. She keeps on saying sorry. I just want to tell her the truth but she might thinking I just want to please her. So, I told her, I'm okay with it.
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Actually, during this holy month, I try to repair myself and become a good human.. Not to please others but more like I need to please Allah. I set my goal to khatam quran towards end of this holy month and I keep on pushing myself to read it at least 2 pages for a day. But today, I dont feel to read it (bad attitude). Dont know what is in my mind today but I really feel too exhausted.
Not body but emotionally. I feel like I need some air fresh with a sound of wave in a windy weather.
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Or maybe actually, the thing that I needed most now is relax and sleep. I dont have enough sleep for almost a month since my eyes dont want to have it and my mind keep on working which I dont know what work it is.
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